Sunday, May 23, 2010

Pondering...

Well, here I am at work, blogging again!  May sure seems to be the season for graduations!!  haha!  Tuesday we had Miss Hallie's pre-school graduation.... boy, I can not believe she will be going to Kindergarten in the fall!  It makes me so sad!!  Moving on to Friday evening, we had my baby brother, Jake's graduation, which really had me thinking.  As I sat and watched him walk across the stage to receive his deploma, and I saw my 5 year old daughter sit in her seat and scream when they read his name, a flood of emtions over took me.  It seems as if Jake was 5, just the other day, I swear!  Dear Lord, I hope, and I pray, with all of my might, that the next 13 years don't fly by as quickly as the last 13... I'm just not quite ready to see my baby girl walk across the stage and pick up her high school diploma!  Tonight we went to Josh's cousin, Markus, high school graduation party.  Markus was 13 when I married into the family... same situation here!  Where does time go?!

On a different note, I need to be posting some pictures!!  Hadlie Mae sure is changing and growing so quickly.  She weighs 17 pounds now!  I tell ya, that doesn't seem possible either!  I'll try to make a point this week to make time to upload pictures!  Until then, I'm signing off!!

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Happy Mother's Day!

     When I started this whole blog thing, I kept thinking to myself, "When am I ever going to find the time to blog?"  Well, I've proved myself right.  I started my blog page bored at work, and I find myself continuing my blog, bored at work!
     The days & weeks have been flying by, one after another.  This weekend has been especially busy.  Hallie had her first t-ball game yesterday.  She loves it!  She told me that a little boy from the other team asked her what her name was.... her reply, "I'm not telling!  Sorry!"  (See if you can picture her saying that with her sassy attitude, lol!)
     Today is not only Mother's Day, but Hadlie was also baptized at church this morning.  We were so blessed to have most of our family present to celebrate with us.  We also had dinner afterwards in the church fellowship hall.  Hayden was also baptized on Mother's Day, and it was a "tradition" I wanted to carry on with Hadlie.  It was a wonderful, somewhat stressful day. :)  But we were able to all catch a decent, much needed nap after lunch!
     Today has been a special Mother's Day, my first one to share with Hadlie Mae.  She is special to me in so many ways.  I know that if Hayden was still her, Hadlie wouldn't be.  That is such a bittersweet thought for me, one that I almost cannot comprehend.  How can a mother's heart be broken for the loss of her son, but so full of love for her daughter?  I miss and think about Hayden every day, but especially on special holidays.  Most Mother's Day cards thank moms for "everything they do", but for me, Mother's Day is a celebration of my beautiful kiddos that get to call me Mommy.  I love every minute of it!!  Today at church, a special poem was shared.... it brought tears to my eyes!

Wet Oatmeal Kisses


One of these days you'll explode and shout to all the kids, "Why don't you just grow up and act your age!" And they will...

Or, "You guys get outside and find something to do -- without hurting each other And don't slam the door!" And they don't.

You'll straighten their bedrooms until it's all neat and tidy, toys displayed on the shelf, hangers in the closet, animals caged. You'll yell, "Now I want it to stay this way!" And it will...

You will prepare a perfect dinner with a salad that hasn't had all the olives picked out and a cake with no finger traces in the icing and you'll say, "Now this is a meal for company." And you will eat it alone...

You'll yell, "I want complete privacy on the phone. No screaming, Do you hear me?" And no one will answer.
No more plastic tablecloths stained. No more dandelion bouquets. No more iron-on patches. No more wet, knotted shoelaces, muddy boots or rubber bands for ponytails.

Imagine.... a lipstick with a point, no babysitters for New Years Eve, washing clothes only once a week, no PTA meetings or silly school plays where your child is a tree, no car pools, blaring stereos or forgotten lunch money.

No more Christmas presents made of library paste and toothpicks, no wet oatmeal kisses, no more tooth fairy, no more giggles in the dark, scraped knees to kiss or sticky fingers to clean.

Only a voice asking, "Why don't you grow up?" And the silence echoes: "I did"

- unknown

I don't want to think about what my life will be like 25 years from now.  I'm looking at my parents and thinking, "When did we grow up?"  I remember the day they brought my baby brother home from the hospital... in 2 weeks he will be gradutation high school.  It just doesn't seem possible.

For now, I'll gladly keep my wet oatmeal kisses. :)